The World Around Us.

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He sat by himself tonight, in booth 5. In the back corner away from the world.  He ordered a glass of pepsi, something simple.  He pulled out his paper for the day and sipped on his pop.  Never saying a word. I watched as he flipped from one page to the next and wondered why he was by himself.  Did he lose his wife to cancer? Was he devorced?  What did he do for Christmas if he was by himself?  Thoughts continued to run through my head as he took one sip after another.  He left me a 50 cent tip, 50 cents more than I deserved.  I had not taken the time to ask him how is day was.  How Christmas was.  I was in my own little world as I served him his Pepsi.
Just thought I'd share this story with you as an inspiration to reach out next time to someone, as I wish I would have.

The other day while at the post office I was picking up a package that had been sent to me by an amazing friend of mine.  While there the post office clerk goes "Someone loves you very much, they spent a lot of money to get this to you by Christmas."  My face lit up and filled with tears as I shared with her where and why this package was coming from.  She responded by telling me how many people's lives I have touched and changed by my never ending smile and drive for life.  She lifted my spirits as she blessed me with encouraging words of what an amazing young lady I am.  But one thing she said was how unfair it is that such a beautiful young lady has to struggle with Cystic Fibrosis as I do. 

Her words struck me deep as I kept on thinking about it that day.  CF is not a curse, as many people think it is, but a blessing in disguise.  This 'blessing' is nothing I need to be moping around feeling sorry for myself for. As we all struggle with our own troubles always remember that someone has it worse off then you do and God can handle anything in our lives.  If I could of had a response to the post-office clerk, if it hadn't for me being overwhelmed by her encouragement, I would of told her how my beautifulness (if that is a word) is driven by the will to live and the will to live for God.  Shining His light even through the darkest of days that come my way.  My spunk and personality was a gift from the One above and I can't fathom the thought of wasting that gift.  

I am living a life for others, as I like to tell myself when I'm not taking pills or doing treatments (for myself).  I accept and treasure all the kindness I'm shown every day of my life, but if I'm your role model, just imagine how great my role models are and how amazing my number one role model is, Jesus.  What a beautiful sight.

The Beauty of Silence.

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All I can hear around me is silence, well and my air purifier and a snow blower outside, but that is besides the point haha.  I've been very moved lately by the beauty of silence.  I sometimes just stay awake at night and listen to well, nothing.  But it's the most beautiful sound that God created.  Life has gotten so busy for everyone lately, including me.  From working, to being with friends, to being on facebook, to the never ending texts and calls to stay in contact with people I sometimes get lost in myself and as I like to put it, "run around with my head chopped off."  Recently I had all four of my wisdom teeth out (the picture is me with ice wrapped around my cheeks) and my oh my it was not enjoyable by any means.  But I spent four days at home keeping myself busy doing.....nothing. But it was the best way to use my time.  I spent time laying in bed, reading the Bible, doing my treatments and most of all just spending time with myself and God.  These past few years have been so hectic in my life as I have been transitioning to college and working with my Diabetes that in a way I lost myself in it all.  The four days I was home I was able to in a way "introduce" myself to me again.  I contemplated the things I love to do that I have not done for many years, for example play my violin.  God created us for His being and when we lose sight of His plan for our lives and lose sight of who we are that He created us to be, we need to step back and listen to the beauty of silence. 
As 2010 is coming right around the corner, I challenge you to get familiar with yourself again, and the plans God has for you.  Let the world go for a day and just be with yourself.  God has blessed you so you can be a blessing,  take advantage of that. :)